Wow. Talk about mood swings.

First I go from depressed earlier today and very bummed, to hating and rage and so much wow...and now to gleefully happy and optimistic. From some help of that good fellow Scott (www.melodramatic.com/users/sanji) he's helped a bit. But I like to thinjk I've come to the realizationg that I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I do love her, but I know it's over. It's obvious she doesn't want me anymore. So I'm happy that she's found somenoe she can be happy with, it's better to see her happy with someone else than sad and depressed without me. So right now, things are looking on the up. Sure, I'll never get to hold her again, see that cute smile in her eye, or probably ever kiss her angelic lips. But, I tend to get over things somewhat quickly...I hope. Things will be fine, I also came to the realization that i forgive her for what she did..it was mean, and hurtful, but without it I never would've felt this alive. This...it's just unexplainable really. She's a wonderful person, and what's in the past, is in the past and I only live for the present. So Allie, I love you, forgive you. And best of wishes to you...

Dont be afraid now, come out of the covers
The sun's back up, even if it's still down
There's a brighter sun now, and it's you.